I, too, am just inside the “safe” range medically. My latest bloodwork came back with everything in proper range. I run daily. I bought new clothes, including shirts that fit tight and show my lack of belly. Make no mistake, if you saw me today you’d think that I could stand to lose a fuck ton of weight myself. My crepe skin hangs on my bones, and I’m not attractive!!! So please remember that reality for a minute while I say, I am so proud of myself for escaping my eating disorders that I think I am hot!!! I’m not. That said, the delusion has an incredible benefit: I eat like a picky, skinny eater. Not an act, it is how I like to eat, post-disorders, left to what I really want.

My point is that we are proportionally at the same place, weight-wise. But our attitudes are inherently different. It begs the question as to the nature of eating disorders. As for me, I don’t have a clue, even after going through them.

Your writing is a valuable resource. Thanks for taking the time, it is always great to read you.